Hmmm....
Ok, Ok, I think I've got this.
*WARNING-SPOILER*
The boy, who is either awake or asleep to start with, dreams or hallucinates about going into a concrete bunker, possibly a 'hospital', where he spits out cockroaches as payment. The cockroach, perhaps resembling grime and dirt or lowly status.
He then goes into another room, where he meets an even larger cockroach. It speaks.
After 'treatment' the boy is dead. Are you trying to say that if a person suffers from manic depression, even dream-death, coma or true death is better?
I disagree. Get help, everything will be OK. At least everyone feels deeprest at one time in their lives, for some it lasts more than others, and incase you're wondering, chocolate helps, as it releases endorphins- happy hormones.
Well, I think I have said enough on this subject. Just remember, there are real people just like Spoilsbury toast boy that are much worse off than you are.
(O.o)